My daughter, Erin, is in school for photography. She will be taking photos of the jewelry I've made as part of an assignment to create 'product' photos. I am looking forward to getting the photos and posting them.
Dan and I are developing an idea for offering beading class sessions for small groups. We'll be working on finishing off our studio for this soon. I am planning sample pieces and options for the classes.
I've just ordered some new beads from Auntie's Beads to make stone, sterling and leather bracelets. One of the stones I'll use will be turquoise.
http://www.auntiesbeads.com/
This weekend I'll be collaberating with two agilty friends who are also beaders to make pieces that will be donated for the CPE Nationals this coming June. The Nationals will be held in Minnesota this year and Chui is entered!
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Sunday, February 27, 2011
New attempt to make something of this blog idea
I have a lot of thoughts in my mind about life, now and past. I feel I have two lives, the one that is gone forever and the new one I am trying to create and hang on to. It's hard. I do find I can take some things from my old life to use now, but still with some sadness. I'm working on that. I'm working on being grateful for it and honoring it wisely. But having my life change in an instant and never being able to say goodbye still hurts and I think it will hurt forever. My first hope is that my boys can forgive me, my second hope is that I can forgive myself and lastly I wish I could feel at peace with the thought that they are now in the spirit world and are okay.
That last is the key, how do I find the spirituality to believe that? How do I live without it? How do I embrace it? I don't know. It is very frightening. It's hard. How can I make that wish become a hope and then a belief? I need something, a sign, where will it come from? I feel it needs to come from within me? Will that ever happen? Will I live long enough for it to happen?
There is a little interesting thing that is happening to me. I don't know if I will consider it a sign of all my hopes. Non-the-less, it is something new. It is that I am scared of dying. I am scared of my lifestyle that is destroying my health. I'm also scared for my family, for so many of them. If only we could all be different, take away the underlying sadness, shame and guilt and let ourselves love ourselves and others. Then move on being healthier and happier. We have so much we could enjoy, we are all intelligent, creative, passionate and kind good people. We have the capacity to give and to frolic. There is so much wit and insight here, we could do much more with it and enjoy it. Perhaps it will improve for us all. I hope so. I will do my best. But DAMN, I wish I had a Pepsi and ice right now. Should I go look in the kitchen? Maybe.
That last is the key, how do I find the spirituality to believe that? How do I live without it? How do I embrace it? I don't know. It is very frightening. It's hard. How can I make that wish become a hope and then a belief? I need something, a sign, where will it come from? I feel it needs to come from within me? Will that ever happen? Will I live long enough for it to happen?
There is a little interesting thing that is happening to me. I don't know if I will consider it a sign of all my hopes. Non-the-less, it is something new. It is that I am scared of dying. I am scared of my lifestyle that is destroying my health. I'm also scared for my family, for so many of them. If only we could all be different, take away the underlying sadness, shame and guilt and let ourselves love ourselves and others. Then move on being healthier and happier. We have so much we could enjoy, we are all intelligent, creative, passionate and kind good people. We have the capacity to give and to frolic. There is so much wit and insight here, we could do much more with it and enjoy it. Perhaps it will improve for us all. I hope so. I will do my best. But DAMN, I wish I had a Pepsi and ice right now. Should I go look in the kitchen? Maybe.
Monday, July 6, 2009
July 6, 2009
Will I spend the time to figure this out? I don't know yet. Stacy had an idea for a place to post arts and crafts done by family members. I thought I would find out if I can do this on a blog.
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